But it isn't really a very deep sense of the experience of being gay tho. I think it's a common misconception that being penetrated is more gay than penetrating.
I remember after the first time I had sex with another man, he said afterwards "You're gay now". Though I consider myself bisexual, as I am still attracted and have had sex with women as well. It took me a long time to accept that about myself, even after sexual experiences. But I am comfortable with who I am now, and I no longer felt any shame or anything after having sex with a guy. I used to go through that and would suppress my urges, but not anymore.
But it isn't really a very deep sense of the experience of being gay tho. I think it's a common misconception that being penetrated is more gay than penetrating.I remember after the first time I had sex with another man, he said afterwards "You're gay now". Though I consider myself bisexual, as I am still attracted and have had sex with women as well. It took me a long time to accept that about myself, even after sexual experiences. But I am comfortable with who I am now, and I no longer felt any shame or anything after having sex with a guy. I used to go through that and would suppress my urges, but not anymore.
Congratulations on recognizing what works best for you. If you were "gay" you would have known it long before you had sex with the guy who assigned it to you. Sort of my point from my previous post that people have different ideas of what gay is.
I used to bareback my ex girlfriend, and even cum inside of her. A couple other girls I have barebacked before too, but I would pull out before cumming. I've always been conscious about that. The sex I've had with different guys was always with a condom, though a guy did once cum in my mouth without warning me. I didn't like it though, but that could just be because I wasn't prepared