Im bottom and I prefer bareback - its so much better. Generally I only bb with people I know are clean and clear but sometimes I just cant resist and just go with the flow. A few years ago I was in a gay sauna and was deep throating a guy with my bum in the air as other guys took turns fucking me - all bareback. I didnt even see their faces! A worrying time when I got tested but all clear fortunately - not sure that Id let that happen again.
Ive only barebacked with 1 guy. We would catch up over the course of 18 months when we were between Girlfriends and sometimes during Girlfriends. There was nothing better than watching his face as he came, and knowing his big load of cum was deep inside me, and later, knowing I was carrying his load with me when I was out and about. It gets me horny just thinking about it.
Apart from him, its condoms all the way until I can find a regular guy I can trust again